For those of you who have been with me since the beginning of my blog back in 2009. You know that I’m a routine lover and proffessional list maker. I’ve been known to be quite OCD at times. This year though, has been the beginning of a new way of life for me. I have changed things quite dramatically. Recently I blogged about how moms just LOVE to be amazing at EV.ER.Y.THING and in the process we unintentionally run ourselves into the ground.
So this year I decided to make some changes, starting with my “to do” list. I came to the conclusion that my routines and mile long lists of things I needed to do were not serving me well. I felt busy all the time and I didn’t like the affect it was having on my spirit and the way I treated my husband and children. I knew that some things needed to change. I wanted to be more present and relaxed without feeling a constant pull to get things done. So I let everything go. Well not everything, but I’ve made some major progress. I’m simply trying to allow room for God to guide me in my every day. Trying to become MORE by doing LESS.
To be clear, I didn’t give up ALL lists. I still use them when necessary like to ensure I don’t forget things, or when it comes crunch time and I MUST get certain things done. Basically I’m just a lot more selective. My lists and schedules got pretty ridiculous at times. Like writing down what time of day I would say a prayer, or when I would sit and play with my kids. I’d even go as far as mapping out everything we were going to do during the hour of play time. Although this method can actually be really good, for me it was removing myself from the actual moment. I was constantly thinking about what I needed to do next, had timers going all the time and I would never just sit and relax. It also made me extremely frustrated because the TIME schedule with my kids never went as planned.
I just want to simplify my life, and be happy with doing NOTHING once in a while, or having no plan for the day. Doing nothing can be very good for the soul.
The book I’m reading right now has been extremely helpful in this endeavor. It’s called The Power of Pause by Terry Hershey.
By giving up my obsession for “to do” lists and schedules I have opened up a whole new space in my life that I didn’t know existed. I’m leaving room for creativity and spontaneity. It’s quite refreshing. Not an easy task but it definitely has it’s rewards.